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I struggled in my marriage for a ton of reasons. So many. So glad to be divorced now. ONE of the reasons was that he didn’t want sex. It felt like punishment. I asked him once if he was gay. Gay men hit on him right in front of me. I still think he is gay and not even “out” to himself. Or bi.

I struggle with so many articles saying women don’t want sex. I did! And he turned me down every time I asked. But if he asked, I had to jump and be ready , fully turned on , within seconds. Because who knew when or if I would get it again?

It felt like abuse. 22 years of marriage. And sex maybe 12 times total. Maybe 15 times total. I should have counted. It truly felt like abuse.

I never cheated. And when I finally started resorting to masterbating (during the last 3-4 months of the marriage), I felt like I was cheating. 🙄

It was another “no win” scenario for me.

So glad to be done with him. So glad to have found your writings!!

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